Sparks, Light & Insight

Chaos it certainly was in my case prior to the first intensive for my third year in the advanced diploma of holistic counselling and psychotherapy. I wasn’t aware of it, it was just sitting there in my secondary process. In the previous six months I had supported my husband through treatment for prostate cancer, moved house and city, changed jobs and moved from full-time to part-time work, had two operations in hospital and developed some major on going health issues. But I was coping and thought I had it all together.

So I approached the intensive four day session with an open mind. The main subject was to be grief, death and loss – a subject we all have to deal with. It was great to see everybody again and catch up on their stories since last November. There were lots of hugs as we again established our circle. What happened over the next four days was amazing and to me, a clear example of how the Universe unfolds events to provide clarity if you are prepared to listen.

The first trigger was a vector walk. A vector walk is an inner journey to help find your journey principal or life myth – the unconscious belief systems that guide your emotional responses. There are three sectors – in the first you explore a body symptom and, in the second, you explore a childhood dream or memory. In the third sector, you use your second attention to watch what comes up. What came up for me was my life myth – that I had to rush to please others (and delete time to look after myself) so they would like and accept me. A significant AH AH moment.

We then moved onto grief, death, dying and loss. The next significant AH AH moment occurred during the clay therapy. My clay model was a heart supported by open hands to symbolise loosening the grip of feelings of abandonment from various relationships in my life. During the experiental exercise where we shared our models I realised how uncomfortable I felt with receiving. Another signal about self worth and acceptance and looking after myself.

The final AH AH moment came the next day when I had an esoteric philosophy astrology reading with William Meader. He told me my spiritual path or destiny was in healing and teaching and that i needed to take care of my physical body to allow my destiny to unfold.

The major theme for me over the weekend was clarity, letting go and confirmation – getting clear about what I was about, finding out my life myth and limiting beliefs, letting them go and confirming my life path.